If you recall from last month, things have been a bit challenging lately. The move really took a lot out of me – and naive as I was going into it, I thought I would be done by now. I had this idea in my head that I would be going from room to room, and decorate them nicely one at a time. I know, I know. You can all laugh with me now.
I am spread out…everywhere.
Add to that list, the 3 hours I am spending in the car every day until the end of the school year – the multiple family assignments we need to do for my daughter’s gifted school program – the piano recitals – the soccer games and practices – the medical issues I am addressing with my middle child – trying to potty train our youngest – my husband’s frequent traveling work schedule – and of course my own personal work deadlines…let’s just say, I am trying not to lose my mind.
I am not telling you all of this because I want to whine, trust me – my friends have heard enough of my complaining already. But rather the opposite. These issues have made me frequently have thoughts that I wanted to address here today.
Have you ever wanted to quit it all?
To just stop everything you are doing, to just BE again. With these challenging times – I have often thought to myself – why am I doing this? I certainly don’t NEED to. I do love it, most of the time. But when I am all strung out like this…why do I bother?
A lot of time goes into running a successful blog. Many people don’t realize this, but it is truly a part time, if not full time job. It also costs money every month – I need to make a bare minimum of around $500-$600 each month blogging just to cover my expenses. And between sewing content creation, writing blog posts, social media, photographing, photo editing, answering e-mails, etc – I spend at least 4 hours a day working. At least. I am my own customer service relations, my own Public Relations specialist, my own Photographer, my own COO, CEO, CFO, etc. You get the drift. Why do I tell you all of this? Because it is WORK. The bigger your blog gets, the more work there is. A lot of what I do is never even seen here – but rather on larger company websites as a paid contributor. And as much as I love doing what I do, any time you have deadlines you need to meet – there is always going to be pressure.
But its more than this. You see, between all of this craziness, I started to notice something. I was becoming more disconnected with the people around me. The people actually in my day to day life. I was picking my daughter up from preschool, and the friends I used to sit and talk with – were now talking with other people. I am not making it to my weekly Wednesday’s women’s church group, nor am I making any play dates for my kids. All of that extra time that I would take to do these activities was on the bottom of my priority list, and the act of moving and settling into our new house quickly bumped them off.
I am so busy running around to school, soccer, piano, girl scouts, etc. – that I have less and less time to work. Which means every free minute I have, whether that is at the playground with my kids or sitting at a red light, I am on my phone trying to work. Unsuccessfully might I add. And on the tough days, all I can think of is…I just want to quit it all.
This video really hit home for me.
I don’t want to be disconnected. It was part of the very same reason I started this Series in the first place, I like to know my readers – to know the people around me, on-line and in my personal life. In fact, I have these grand visions of my new home – and being friends with the people in our neighborhood as we all get together over the Summer for outdoor movies and BBQs. Of spending the Summer at the beach with my family, and rubbing aloe on their little pink noses.
This past weekend I left my phone on the kitchen counter, and realized that for the first time in months – I hadn’t checked it all day long. I hadn’t looked at my e-mails, or Instagram, or Facebook all day. It felt AWESOME.
I think what it comes down to is…I need a break. We all need them from time to time. I need to get connected back into the world around me, and remember that PEOPLE are the most important thing.
So I have decided to take the Summer and relax a little. I have even given my team members a month off – they each chose what month(s) will work best for them – and the Sewing Rabbit posts will be less frequent during the Summer months.
And as I have these kids home from school, I want to remember a Summer of sandy toes and fried chicken at the park – of bike rides and messy popsicles – of riding in the paddle boat and maybe learning a new sport. I might even be able to talk my husband into doing a bit of traveling this Summer.
Wish me luck :).
Have you ever felt disconnected? What do you do to get your groove back when things become too much? And what are your fun plans for the Summer?!