I think as bloggers, many of us get extra sentimental around milestones. Most of us are stay-at-home Mom’s first and foremost, bloggers second. And milestones hit us so hard because we have to ask ourselves one very important question. ‘Am I missing it?’. Am I missing watching my children grow up by blogging on the side? Am I missing seeing every little smile they make, new thing they discover, or game they imagine? A lot of that is the same reason why I have decided to take the Summer off. To truly spend it with my kids and live LIFE. And I have to admit, although I am starting slowly due to some looming deadlines…so far, I am truly enjoying it. I have spent SO MUCH more quality time with my kids. I am out and about doing so much more stuff, I am enjoying so many more squeals of laughter, and I am seeing a true change in my children’s and my own behavior. It has been an incredible transformation, and one I am truly enjoying. Furthermore, it is realigning my priorities in a way that is more healthy and beneficial for my family.
Today is Madeline’s birthday.
This is a milestone for me, as I remember just how much 5 changed my eldest daughter Chloe. It is when they leave toddler years behind, and truly become kids. My baby is turning 5. I cannot believe it. I can just about go through all of my old posts on the Sewing Rabbit and watch her grow up on-line. Which to tell you the truth, I am extremely thankful for – because as some of you may recall, about a year ago my hard drive crashed and I lost every single photo I ever had since Maddy’s birth. It was devastating. These photos were the few that I had posted on Facebook after her birth announcing her entering the world. It was by far the most memorable birth out of all 3 of my children. Which is why I thought it might be fun to share it here with you today.
Madeline’s Birth Story…
Our family was living in Munich at the time when we found out we were pregnant with our second child. I would have to take public transportation (we didn’t have a car living in the city), all with the baby stroller and Chloe on board, to trek to the middle of town to visit our doctor. I was, and I quote, “her youngest patient”. I was 30. In Munich, women tend to have children later in life I guess. What I didn’t find out until I was almost ready to give birth, was that doctors don’t attend the actual birth in Germany, they are really only there for you while you are pregnant. Come delivery day, you are in the hands of the mid-wives at the hospital.
Madeline was our only baby that came naturally, without needing to be induced. It was the middle of the night when the labor started, and I was able to spend as much time as possible at home before heading to the hospital. At about 2 am I told my husband that it was time to take me, and off we went on the 20 minute ride to the local Red Cross…which by the way, was a drive over almost ALL cobblestone streets – lol! I was dying.
We got to the Red Cross, and the mid-wives checked me in. I was ready to go. It was a short birth, with Madeline being born at 6:40am. But it was the most memorable one I have. You see, in Germany they want everything to be ‘natural’. I had to FIGHT for my epidural, but I did eventually get one. There was no air conditioning, but luckily it was a nice cool May night and the windows were open. And I gave birth while STANDING UP, that’s right. The mid-wives had me stand up when Madeline was arriving into the world, to allow gravity to help. Which makes perfect sense to me now, but at the time…
But then the most amazing thing happened. Madeline was born, and immediately after they took her out – they gave her to me and LEFT US ALONE. They didn’t take her away and clean her up and run all of the tests like they do here in America. There she sat, on my chest, not yet cleaned off for a good hour or so. My husband was in the room with me, and we both got to enjoy our newborn daughter for the first hour of her life. Without interruption, in the most natural state that God can give us. It was the most memorable moment of all of my labors. That hour of holding Madeline, listening to the birds chirp outside my hospital window. I will cherish it forever.
I made this video for Maddy last year when she turned 4, and I still love to watch it. It still brings tears to my eyes .
All I can say is, cherish the little moments. Don’t let your blog, or your life, get so busy that it starts to pass you by. I hear too many stories on a daily basis about life lost unexpectedly, and you just never know how much time you are going to get. So although deadlines must be hit, and working can be extremely fulfilling – try to find balance if at all possible. After all, they are only 5 once.